Do I Believe in Christmas Magic?

           Do I believe in Christmas magic??? Nope LOL there is no real magic. I wish there was, that would be so fun. I would love to be able to wield magic, of course I would be horrible at it LOL so probably a good idea not to give me that kind of power. Sure, I would do awesome things for people, but on the flip side, if they pissed me off...

          Today happens to be my 55th birthday.  I am not happy about that. Not because of the number, but rather the fact that I have nobody special to share it with or anything special to do. Okay, not entirely accurate, I have my two amazing kids who are going out of their way to make me feel special, but they do that daily :)  my funny son got me some slipper socks. It took me a bit to realize they were the kind we put on the fall precaution patients at work LOL he doesn't want me to fall down cause I'm old now LOL he is lucky I love him and have a sense of humor or I would be so mad LOL. My daughter sewed me one of the cutest little duck plushy from her game. I always comment that it is so cute, so she made me a real one :) she is the sweet one of the two LOL my son is thoughtful though, instead of cake, he went way back in his memory and remembered me saying years ago I liked these corn muffins once, so he made some for me. Both of them are incredible. 

          I cannot believe my life has turned out the way it did. This is definitely not what I imagined as a kid. I have so many blessings, my kids, my pets, my home, my job, my health, and my freedom. I just imagined I would not be on my own for all of it. It is not that I want to be dating. I would be horrible at that, I just wish way back when, that I had started all of this with a partner. Somebody who by now would be growing old with me, who I would have shared all these experiences with. It is the one part of life that I regret. It is way to late to change that now. Oh well.