Diet or Die?

 

          It has come down to this, at least in my head. If I do not lose weight, I am seriously going to cut my years left short. I do not want to do that. I have not prepared my kids for living on their own. I believe they would be lost, and I do not want to do that to them. 

          I am supposed to go to work tonight, but my foot is almost feeling all better, and I am afraid if I do go in, I will re-strain it and have to start all over again. The pain is what is motivating me right now. That plus I got on the scale and I have gained 20 lbs since last year. I am trying to not cry, but that is all I want to do right now. It seems the harder I try, the worse I get.

          So, instead of crying, I am going to make a plan, and find a way to stick to it. The biggest part of it is curbing my diet. I have too long allowed myself to self indulge whatever I wanted to. I cannot do that. It seems I start off great in the morning, but by the evening  I have binged. I need to stop that. I also need to move as much as I safely can right now. That means just the chair workouts until I drop some weight and my foot is healed. Somehow I must manage this before I leave my kids with no me.