My First Love

 

          I remember my first love, I still love him, and most likely always will. He and I were never together together, but we were close. His name was Richard, I was only one who called him Richie. I met him when I was 20 years old. I was so incredibly shy back then. My mom forced me to go to my church's young adult meeting. I was terrified. I got there, went in, and say down. I did not interact with anybody. Once it was over I dashed out. On my way to my car I heard somebody running after me. Scared the bejeebers out of me. I turned around and my heart stood still. It was the cutest guy I had ever seen in real life. He said "I'm sorry I scared you, I just wanted to meet you". I was stunned and right then and there I fell for him hard. We talked for a few minutes and then I had to reluctantly leave. I was smiling all the way home. Every week I would go to the meeting and every week we would hang out together. He did not have romantic feelings for me, he was just a nice guy. He became my best friend LOL. We would pull pranks on each other, go on road trips, he took me to college parties. He taught me how to enjoy life. I came out of my shell hanging out with him. He only saw me as a friend, but I loved him completely. I was heartbroken when I moved away to Arkansas. We stayed in touch for a bit via phone calls, but those eventually stopped. Once, after my divorce, I went back to Reno to visit my mom and looked him up. He and I made plans to get together. It was like no time had passed. One thing did change though, he saw me as a woman LOL. It was probably because we both knew it was a one time date, so we let ourselves be romantic for one night. I got to melt in him arms and be held (I even got a lot of kisses) LOL. My 30 year old self was living the dream of my 20 year old self. It was a great date.

          I cannot believe we are now both in our 50's. I just looked him up, because of this prompt, and saw he is still in Reno. Last I knew he had become a teacher. It does not look like he has much of an online life. I did not see any spouse pop up with his name. In a way I am happy for that LOL. My heart would break a bit to find out he is married. If he is single, then there is still a possibility LOL not that I would go looking for him. I just like that it is there. Plus, what if the person he is now is nothing like I remember. I would rather he stayed my perfect true love in my mind. I miss him a lot, I always will. He brought me to life and for that I will always love him.