Me and menopause (sort of)

         

Disney forever

Oh my LOL I’m too young!!!! 

Me at 1 month old

I keep telling myself that, but more and more I am less inclined to believe it.  I do not feel old, thankfully I do not look old.  People are shocked at how old I actually am.  I will turn 48 this year (if I had an emoji of a banging head that would be here). I definitely do not act old; I love doing kid friendly things. I still watch cartoons, go to the park, play with toys, and love anything to do with Disney. I’m still just a kid at heart. 

         

troll doll cutie

Unfortunately, my body is starting to let me down.  I think I have reached that stage in life where I am premenopausal.  Ugh that is the normal hormonal fluctuations that occur as a woman nears menopause.  It is confusing trying to figure out how I feel about this new phase of life.  One part of me feels so sad that the possibility of having any more children is gone (not that I planned on having anymore) it is just sad that it is no longer an option.  On the other hand, no more periods LOL hate having those. 

say cheese

         Signs and symptoms of perimenopause that I seem to be stuck with due to the shifting hormones are fatigue, irregular periods, mood swings (I go from happy, to sad, to angry in 3 seconds) lots of trouble sleeping, and forgetfulness.  Did you know that a study was done that showed that 60% of women in my situation had short term memory loss, did not learn new things well, and had a hard time trying to concentrate (no wonder this is taking forever to write)?  Also 40% suffered from those awful mood swings.

never let a drunk uncle give you a haircut

  Sometimes I feel like I am losing my mind.  I speak before I think now, and the things I say are in no way what I am feeling.  I have lost ability to censor myself at times.  No wonder old folks speak so candidly LOL   

          So to any family or friends that read this, please forgive me and have patience if I say something hurtful or stupid.  I am sure I didn’t mean it.  It’s the hormones talking.  They say this doesn’t last forever, I am sure hoping that is true, because I miss being me.             

          Yep all of these shots are me.  I used to be young and cute LOL 

the last good pic of me